I don't think this is crazy though, you know, don't go doing it or anything! Taking the high road doesn't feel as satisfying as revenge seems like it would be, but pays off in the long run.
I suspect this is a phase, especially since perhaps with your WH acting right you don't want to be angry at him despite his moral lapse here being far far worse.
Take a kickboxing class and imagine you're punching the women if you must; I am sure you know that actually hurting them couldn't change the situation you're in anyway.
[This message edited by norabird at 11:04 AM, February 14th (Friday)]