Hallmark Cheaters people posting all their happy happy flowers and hearts on FB
Ugh.
Yeah, I won't be doing too much FB reading today either.
I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars.
I wish you all peaceful comfort today. I hope you take a moment to do something nice for yourself.
This is for each of you:
Hugs to all my SI Valentines.
people posting all their happy happy flowers and hearts on FB
Especially them.
Double F U Valentine's Day!!
“I don't want to get to the end of my life and find that I have just lived the length of it. I want to have lived the width of it as well." ~ Diane Ackerman
I hate this made up holiday.
Sidebar: Thanks JustJim.
They have a choice: they can live in my new world, or they can die in their old one." — Daenerys Targaryen
"'Cause there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew. All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true " Set Fire to the Rain Adele
Best.Funniest.Valentines.Gift.Ever.
It's all I got.
He didn't even think to get the kids a bit of candy or anything. I got candy bars for the kids and WH to put at their places at the dinner table. I also got WH a card and a special candy that he likes but can't find very often and I happened to see it.
When he saw the card, etc on our bed he said, "I thought we weren't doing anything for a day?". I said, "We never discussed it.". I left it at that. I think he felt bad. I didn't expect anything. We aren't in R and he's just waiting to leave.
In the past that convo above would have been where I would have jokingly said, "you must have been having that conversation with your girlfriend!". I didn't say it because it's probably absolutely true, and therefore not funny anymore.
I was just hurt and sad. I have no right to be. It isn't as if he hasn't said to me over and over that he doesn't want me. I guess it's just that when he also talks about wanting to do what is right in God's eyes and goes to Bible study every week I think at some point he is going to realize that adultery actually isn't part of God's plan.
:::sigh:::
Next year will be better.
I was surrounded by happy couples and hearts and flowers and champagne. I felt awful, terrible and sad. Sure enough, the OW posted pics of the flowers she got from my ex. People that I know through our relationship replied asking where she got the flowers with a wink. They know he's with her now. I wonder what he told them that he could just pop up with her and nothing seems off. I hate that none of his friends cares about what happened to me. I have been there for years for his friends and nothing. I understand but I hate it.
I wonder if he went to the florist where he used to get my flowers. Or did he just go to Costco. I think he went to Costco and told her he went somewhere better, honestly she wouldn't know the difference. The florist would remind him of me. I remember him telling me he never bought flowers until me. I know now that was a lie. I hate what he has done to me and that I'm heartbroken. I loved Valentine's day even before him. He used to tell me it was just a day but he did things for me because he knew I would love it. Now he's doing it for her.I hate that he is taking the things I loved and giving them to the OW. It is so unfair. I hope I can love it again.
I didn't get anything either, not even a card.
BUT
Our value does not come from gifts and cards. It comes from being us, pure and simple.
Some of the people who make the biggest gestures (my ex) do so to cover up their lack of truth and authenticity.
It's over. You survived. Congratulations!
Someone once told me that the brightest diamonds are the ones you buy yourself. I can't afford diamonds right now but I did use an Earhfare coupon to buy myself some Valentines flowers and you know, they are more beautiful than any flowers my ex bought me because they were bought with genuine emotion,
So.... Go get some candy or some flowers or some nail polish and know that next year WILL BE BETTER!
