This is an experience I had, too, though outside of SI in a sense, because I hadn't found the site yet.
Anyway, after I moved, I started cleaning out drawers and came upon journals that are a few years old.
The words in those journals are shocking now, and sad too, because of things I was willing to put up with back then ...that I will not now. Sometimes the writing is not clear, but the emotions are there and thinking that I would have taken him back, even with all that he caused, is a hard pill to swallow.
You're right, Pass. There are glimpses of sunlight in every day life now, too...though finding them isn't always easy and hanging on to those moments is difficult, at best.
And SI helped me, too, because there are times in every day life when there are no answers-where people don't want to hear any more or just don't know. And SI is "open" during the darkest hours of night, so that being alone then is less powerful somehow.
[This message edited by Ashland13 at 10:45 AM, February 15th (Saturday)]
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