I knew that more was gonna come out. It was just inevitable. Her memory not being great and all.
I don't remember if I posted that after the current A and I got some truths, I found out she had kissed her friend's boyfriend while I was deployed. I got in contact with the friend today. I know they have fought in the past, probably over this issue, but last time we were all together (and I didn't know about any of this) they seemed to be best friends again. So I do not know if the truth I got from the friend is real or spiteful.
It was more than just a kiss, and they had both told this friend. I'm getting denials. Then after a while of thinking, she remembered that they did have phone sex. Still denying anything else though.
Aside from her friend still holding a grudge, I have no other reason to believe she has a reason to lie to me.
We had a pretty nice day yesterday, games, intimacy, helping out her family. I didn't think of the A for a good 12 hours. I wrote her a letter telling her how I felt at the time, letting her know it would probably change again as we work through this, but that I did enjoy the time we were spending and a few of the little changes she has been doing. I realize it was a mistake, probably even when I was writing it, but at that moment I felt love for her again. She read that this morning.
We've been arguing the past couple hours about her denial and memory. I raised my voice a couple times, and told her when it happen I shouldn't of raised my voice, but was not sorry for it.
She stormed off a bit ago crying. I can tell she is angry now, but I can't tell at who. Time to stand firm and get my shit together. I'm going to work on myself. I hope I have the strength to do it.
