I am just really not okay. I function but mostly that's it. I spent all of last week sick as shit (bronchitis / possibly pneumonia), missed 3 days at 1 job and 2 days at the other - which I can't afford - doctor visit + antibiotics I couldn't afford. Now this week has just been playing "catch up" w/laundry, bills, housework, etc.
I don't even have the energy to vent about the latest assholish things the STBXPOS has pulled the last few weeks. Except to say this - he has started to get very pushy about getting the D moving faster... well I found out he's been parading a new girlfriend around town. Wow. He was trying to hoover/false R up until November and now he's just completely moved on.
Why do I even care???? Why does it still hurt so much??? For fucks sake the POS has basically been "dating" our entire marriage so what's the big deal now?
I can do this single parent / only responsible party thing - it's hard but I've really always done it myself - it's the emotional shit I'm really struggling with right now.