Oh ok I see.....
Well Andrea IMO I think it may be a little too soon to make such a rash decision unless your 100% sure on that decision, and from your post it doesn't sound like you would be 100% certain with your decision.
As for the visions, I completely feel your pain. I am almost a year from DDay and I still have nightmares that creep in every once in a while. I know the visions are hard etc and I know they make you want to bash your head against a wall, but I will say they will start to dwindle..... it takes time.
Have you spoken to an IC yet or sat down and really thought about your options while trying to keep the emotions at bay? I mean just logically thought about your options.....
For me that was my first big step, the logical thinking, there was plenty of time for the emotional thinking.
I am trying my hardest to help you, because I have been in the state of mind youre in right now many many times and I want you to know we are here.
"A tree falls the way it leans.....be careful which way you lean"