Hello SI Community,
I'm in and around day six from D-day where I finally got truth out of my wh. I have better days than before, but now I seem to be going downhill fast. When my WH decided to get himself a new love, I was in the hospital fighting for my life. I've had a chronic diases that has NO cure in site. Since I've been in remission, I have a lot of more confidence that I could make a man very happy if that's what it came down too.
So these last four days, it could be a flaire, but also the flu (almost impossible to test the difference. So I've been taking it easy, but in the meantime, MY WH is hiring women to work in his office and I have NEVER FELT SO INSECURE. iT IS very SMALL COMPANY & HE WILL BE WORKING WITH HER ALOT. To make matters worse, I'm getting ill again and it makes me want to stop fighting for my life. We see how well the worked out for me.
I have NO desire to live my life wondering if he's going to cheat again. he says he never will, but we ll know what an upstanding guy he is now. On last questions, All the months he had sex with his "it" is coming up & honestly I don't want him to touch me, HOW do I get through those months, especially my BD that he had his first sexual relationship with her 3 days later. PLEASE ANYBODY I NEEED HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[This message edited by cluless at 1:28 AM, February 21st (Friday)]
BS 55 -- Me!
LTA EA/PA 1-1/2 years.
D-Day 8-12, 2nd D-Day 9-13, 3rd D-Day 10-13 (stopped counting tt still coming in)
Married 17 yrs, together 20.
MC & IC has been a JOKE.
Status: We're going to try IC one more time.