I don't know what to do. 15 months out, reconciliation has been a bit bumpy but overall ok. He's been a model, remorseful husband, he owns it all and is trying to heal me.
But I feel like I want to separate. I keep looking back and can't believe he made those choices to cheat instead of getting himself help or talk to me when he felt compelled to visit prostitutes.
He admits he never gave me a single thought, and didn't even think about what harm it would do to me. Yet, he kept it so well hidden I never guessed. And that's what I can't get over, what I can't heal from because he can hide stuff so well, I would never know if it happened again.
Trust has gone, my feeling of safety has gone and I'm not sure any of that will ever come back.
Feeling very sad today and ready to give up.
WS 58 Sexually abused as a boy
OW Prostitutes in double figures
OW Home wrecking, work-shy, gold-digging secondary abuser
D Day 11 November 2012
You can't scale a mountain in a single step