At the end of each of our day....we alone decide if we are to remain in our arena.
At the end of our life we will answer for our choices.
SI is wonderful, as are the many books I have read, my pastor, therapist, good friends......but at the core of this battle it is just me......just you in the arena . We have to make the final choices that we will experience consequences over.
I have things to work on, brokenness to mend, hurts to pay restitution for.
I get tired and want to leave the arena.....but that chilling of my soul and retreating from life motivates me to stand up again in the arena.
How much can I take? No idea.....I have passed every benchmark I can conceive of....and I am still here.
God help us all.