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befuzzled110 posted 2/24/2014 08:14 AM

Today, and lately, although there have been no outward signs that anything is going on, I have been anxious and waiting for the other shoe to drop, so to speak. Today, to top it off, is one of the OW's birthday, and I am struggling, thinking, wondering, and worrying is WH is going to do stupid. I know in my heart I should be open and talk to him, but I am afraid that even bringing up the conversation will cause a problem. I am tired of the boat rocking, no matter who does it. Due to my job, I have to work a lot of hours this week. I am beyond fearful that he is going to take advantage of that time and try something. Is this just conditioning from all the drama from the past?

MovingUpward posted 2/24/2014 08:27 AM

Deep breaths


I think that it is fair to express that you are triggering a bit. Clarify that it isn't because of anything that he is doing and just ask for support. Keeping it bottled in, worrying, and/or seeking out info that the shoe needs to drop is going to be counter productive.

Alex CR posted 2/24/2014 08:33 AM

I found myself waiting for that proverbial shoe to drop as I became more comfortable with H.....as I began to feel 'safe' again. I think it was my defense mechanisms reminding me to remember what he is capable of and to protect myself.

Over time as I healed more and became stronger, those feelings lessened and then ceased altogether.

Share with your H how you're feeling.....the two of you together can work it out....IMO, that's part of reconciling.

(((befuzzled10)))

Skan posted 2/24/2014 16:15 PM

If you sharing that you are having a hard time and are triggering causes a problem, then your WH needs to do more work. You have to get these feelings out. Repressing feelings and triggers just builds up more pressure and pain. (((hugs)))

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