I always knew when something was off with H, almost always. You know, when your gut is screaming but then you think there is no way!
We are separated but in the same house. I have the feeling he is up to something, not sure what that something is but I KNOW.
I asked about it tonight. He didn't admit to anything. The rub comes from that I no longer have the right to ask. I shouldn't ask if he is gaming, using porn or whatever else BUT I DID ASK.
I feel like I am being gaslighted, I probably am but he doesn't owe me the answer. More so "none of my business" than gaslighted.
I know him, I know something is OFF. I hope he isn't diving into his prior vices, I still care about him. I want him to be a healthy person.
He explained this was all about the stress on him from changes at work that could greatly affect his income. Very true but I know there is something else.
I am not sure if I can stop caring when I notice changes in him. He is telling me that I am paranoid...
This is all hard and weird.
I do understand this is one of the many pitfalls of in-house separation. I get that but that is still the route I want to take.