I see your D Day was back in 2011 and you're still unhappy with him. I'm sure it's because you read SI and not because he's a complete douche.
I'm sure it's because you read SI and not because he's a complete douche.
HA!
I just went to a Target that I usually don't go to so that I could hop onto the highway and go right to Costco. This Target is right next to a restaurant we went to with OW and her ex BBF. You can't see it from Target. This was maybe 3 months-ish (maybe less) before the A started. And there I was thinking how nice that we'd make a new couple friend. Gag. So I unfortunately took the wrong road and came up the other side of Target next to that restaurant. So yeah...I don't need SI to help me trigger. This is called real life. Real life that he ruined and soiled.
D-Day: 12/21/2011 Confronted him: 12/22/2011
This is the most difficult thing I've ever done.
- Ricky
Former 80s Icon wishful thinking
I find friends here and enjoy posting I don't trigger and am healed. But if my H said I don't like it, I would say to fucking bad. I didn't like your girlfriend but without her I would have never met all the awesome people here!
" You don't want me on SI? Well I'm going to need about 12 hours of good, soul searching communication about your A's, EACH WEEK. With no attitude, while showing remorse and with complete honesty. Think you want to try that?"
"Isn't it interesting that your choices brought me more pain than I've ever felt and yet now you want to dictate how I receive help for it"
"Why don't you like SI? Is it because I've learned how to live with the hell you brought into my life? Would you rather I crumble on the ground and beg you not to cheat?"
[This message edited by mainlyinpain at 11:44 PM, March 7th (Friday)]
I have to admit TCD I look for your posts. Your story breaks my heart and every time I see TTMU post I hope this is the time it'll stick. My xSO detested SI. XSO thought it was a load of shit, I'd ask him to come on and post told him about BM thread and a as told he doesn't need a bunch of people who didn't know him telling him what to think. You do what you need to not what he thinks you should do.
Seriously, do what helps you. There have been times I can't look at JFO. I never go to reconciliation because 1/2 of it seems to be BSs putting up with BS.
However I enjoy F&G. I like learning and giving advice in off topic. I like to read NB (I lurk reading great OLD stories) and lurk in the Betrayed Menz section (they crack me up and are so insightful).
And if fWS doesn't like it (and she doesn't much but knows better that to say anything about it) I don't fucking care.
It's called GROUP THERAPY. And now we can do it virtually at anytime. How cool is that!
My (now)stbx said that the majority of the people here are angry and bitter. The only ones who he didn't take exception to were the ones who *agreed* with him that I seemed like an angry person. And I can't tell you how many times the whole *it takes 2 to R* adage was twisted into *his* double-standarded version -- the one where *I* was supposed to do *my* part....and we were just supposed to *nevermind* that HE wasn't doing his.
He also wanted to know why I thought taking advice from SI'ers was a good idea since most of them were getting divorced.
The bottom line here is to do what works for YOU. He is welcome to his opinion about it, but just because he has one doesn't mean that he needs to share it with you.
(p.s. ..... it's nice to *see* you again C6. )
In my effort to be *concise*, I often come off as blunt and harsh. Sorry, don't mean to be offensive.
I think I said this too in my last response to you: ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME???
Am I bitter and angry? Sure. Do I project my own situation onto others sometimes? I'm sure I do. But that's part of what it is all about. For people not to feel alone. To commiserate. For them to see that other people have been there too, and you will survive, and thrive, and life will get better.
But I'll agree with TTMU on one thing. I don't like you posting in General. I want you down in D/S, like yesterday, like last year. I don't even normally come here to General, but I found this post because I, too, search for you. Do I have a bitterness and anger towards all cheaters? Absolutely not. I've seen success stories, including my own brother. Do I have bitterness and anger when I see an unremorseful wayward using, abusing, and manipulating a betrayed spouse? HELL YES I DO.
But at some point, I don't care about TTMU anymore. I don't care what he says or does. It's what you are doing that I worry about ChinaDoll. That guy is so toxic, and I wish you would run already. This post was just more proof that he does NOT want to help you heal, and he wants to isolate you from people who will emotionally support you and help you see the truth about his actions and motives.
FTG..
fuck him and the horse he rode in on....
sounds like a control freak
DS....before you punch me.....ill put the duct tape back on.....
I told you several months ago that I showed a post of TTMU to my FWH...and he seemed to get it..really,really get it. The transformation was amazing.
Guess what? Like TTMU he is back to rugsweeping and wanting me off SI.
Say it with me, TCD...
HELL NO! WE WON'T GO!
You have the right to heal. You have the right to feel safe. This is YOUR place,TCD. Don't let him take this from you too.
Fuck them both.
[This message edited by confused615 at 10:13 AM, March 13th (Thursday)]
..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.
Last I talked to her (D is ongoing) she said I should switch therapists (the therapist who does my IC also did her IC and our MC). She's not going to a therapist for anything - claims she can't afford it (but she could find a way if she wanted to, as she went to a girls trip a couple weekends ago). I didn't say anything, but my thought was precisely that - she's trying to isolate me from experienced people who can give me support.
It's funny they get upset that we get together with other like-minded people to talk about this situation, but their relationship with the AP's (now as 'friends'' because "they're so much alike" is somehow sacrosanct.
Bottom line, we keep and choose our confidents, they keep and choose theirs. And at the end of our lives we'll account for how we did. After all, you're only here because of your WS's "lifestyle choice".
Thing is, I'm healing. He's not.
Of course, sending him on his remorseless merry way helped that healing along tremendously, for me.
There does come a time when one is wise to assess whether one's WH can or will ever form remorse and demonstrate empathy. I don't think you've seen either. (((TCD)))
[This message edited by solus sto at 8:41 AM, March 15th (Saturday)]
