So - where to begin. I've been reading posts on this site since Oct. Just became a member yesterday. My situation is crazy and I haven't found any support. My WH was put on prescription drugs 5 years ago which included anti-depressants. Over the course of 4 years, I watched him slowly become a shell of the person he once was.
The big change came at the end of 2012, when they changed him from Celexa to Effexor. This triggered mania. During this manic episode he had sex with a woman he met in his truck. He also got on POF and talked with women on that. I didn't know about any this yet but had already just become completed done with the whole prescripiton roller coaster and asked him to move out and I consulted a divorce attorney.
Then came the shock of the online crap 1st. He got arrested for not paying a speeding ticket and I had his phone and found it all including some very disturbing, very out there messages as well. My heart broke to learn that my 17 yr son had discovered this crap a month before me.
For my children, I knew he needed to get off this crap and well so he agreed to go to rehab. While in rehab I found his old phone and discovered the woman he had sex with. She had been trying to get money from him. The whole thing is disgusting! She told me about the sex, he denied it then finally admitted to it. While at rehab, they said he is bi-polar.
I don't believe the bi-polar diagnosis, I've done a lot of research and have lived with him since he was 19 (now 41). I believe these drugs altered his mind and feel that many people falsely receive this after taking them. But that's not my issue, my issue is whether or not I can overcome the crap he did.
The mania has made his memory sketchy even on things he would have always known. I have no trust left. I will never know all of the details of this time period. I love him and when he was off of the drugs he returned to the person I used to know but that doesn't change the fact that he violated our marital vows. Now it feels like I'm the one out of control.
I'm so tired of the up and down days. Last week I had hope, this week I'm felt like why bother. WTH!
DDAY: 9/13/13 online crap