Being unemployed, I have lot of time on my hands.
With 2 good weather days in a row after The Winter From Hell, I've been making good use of it.
While I was out clearing some brush, I got to see 6 geese land on my pond for a breather in their flight North. It was nice.
However, I had an issue come up. Reviewing the backstory, X ended up with half my farm, and the other house on the farm. Currently, my middle son, DS28, is living in the house, due to a recent breakup with his long-term GF.
Apparently, my oldest visited him tonight. Since he's not driving right now, I assume either his GF or my X drove him out there. My granddaughter was with him. I could hear both their voices distinctly, even though I can't see people through all the trees.
I'm sure there's good reason, such as X providing transportation, why they didn't come the 1/4 mile to my house after the 20 miles from St. Louis to get to X's.
My Boo is the light of my life. I love her, and she loves me. It hurt to have her so close, and not to see her.
I also have a ton of things for oldest to take care of out here. Stuff he left behind after one of his moves. I've been asking him periodically to come over and make some decisions.
So I feel like an outsider and a bit neglected. Like X "won" the boys.
I know they love me, and I know they're mostly oblivious. I know they're not intentionally slighting me, and maybe they don't even know it hurts.
But tonight it does.