Now how did you know my eyes where doing that after his answer.
I truly am not positive why I am still in this marriage
I have many excuses (I call them)
--How do I explain to the kids(they don't know of the affairs(s?))
--Money....he took all of our personal money to buy out another company to add to his....but that is looking better now...and I won't take much so that it will look like I took him to the cleaners and look like I am the bi***
--Scared of being on my own...I am older, was a stay at home mom for mannny years , now only working casual in the school system
--Scared to admit that my life as I dreamed of it is over. I also got a gift of herpes and I know I won't ever be with another guy to share my life with...lots have said otherwise here....but I won't ever go thru letting anyone else on my secret.
--and a bit scared of his anger that I know will arise again when I do finalize things
I know these are excuses, but I am feeling stronger and I think closer to ending this farce.
@confused615---I think he may be the best rugsweeper around.
Thanks for listening and the hugs
I really can't believe he gave me an answer like that still
edited to add
there is a big part of me that just doesn't care anymore.
and no I am not wimpy or depressed(too much)..I just don't think I deserve to have to now worry about money and life because he screwed up mine so much. I don't want to take much money like I said, but then I also don't think he deserves to have a great life with no worries financially.
Maybe I am screwed up in my thinking...I don't know. It sounds screwy to me when I say that
[This message edited by deena at 1:58 PM, March 12th (Wednesday)]