I am a person who likes lists. As today is what would have been my anniversary with the ex, I have to list reasons why it is a good thing he's gone. I am very much of the fake it until you make it camp. I may cry before the day is over, I may cry before I'm even finished with this post, but I am going to move on as best I can. Is it wrong to wish a pox on him for today, a bout of unexplained itching, nerve pain and pustules in his nether region that lasts until midnight tonight?
Ok so here is my list. By no means exhaustive, but something for me to look at and remember that he did me a favor by abandoning me. I'm sure as time goes on I will have more to add but here goes...
I don't have to deal with his pissy moods or wonder what will piss him off next.
I don't have to deal with his drama/problems/issues.
I don't have to deal with his shitty friends (and family).
I don't have to figure out if he's lying anymore.
I don't have to find out another lie/ lie by omission.
I don't have to wonder if he's really working when he says he is.
I don't have to hear his phone/email go off and wonder who it is.
I don't have to turn down men who asked me out because I was committed/loyal/faithful to him.
I don't have to be hurt by him anymore(unless I go looking for it )
I don't have to look at someone who can lie to me so easily.
He will inflict his particular brand of craziness elsewhere. One hopes. One knows.
I don't have to give my heart/love/time/attention/prayers/hope/dreams/life to someone who didn't appreciate me.
I don't have to waste anymore time on him.
I can fill my life with people who genuinely love me, not pretending to do so.
My hope is that one day (soon please because I am tired of crying) I can look at it and thank God I don't have to deal with him anymore. Feel free to chime in with your own.