Another snow day. 90% of them fall on my days with the kids. Thats the breaks. EW wins again. Fortunately, for another week I can blow off work. But. i am getting a new job and I will need help on snow days. I know I will make it and figure it out, but EW has her whole family here and bfOM to bail her out whenever life gets tough. I agreed to move here and give up a promising career for the kids. Luckily, I finally got a fair job starting in a week or so that gets me back on a career path. I am grateful for that.
Unfortunately, I also need more CS and EW is not happy. We see the judge in a few weeks and I am pretty sure I will get more - enough to enable me to pay for sitters etc when this situation arises again. But at what cost? I think EW will eventually calm down but it is so frustrating that she still sees me as the guilty party. Why cant I just do what she wants, support myself and the kids 100% and leave her alone? I wish she could 'walk a mile in my shoes' and accept that her actions have consequences beyond me. That she actually caused this situation and I am just looking out for the kids. Oh well.
Plus I'm giving up chewing tobacco and still grieving my first relationship post divorce. A lot to chew on. No pun intended.
I struggle to keep my head up, be positive, and be grateful for the positives. All aspects of an overall improved quality of life made possible by D. I am thankful. But it is hard.
Thanks for letting me vent.