We had HB at first but when working through things but then we took a break due to my triggers. I've been watching and seeing that he is motivated to have sex due to our emotional connection. I can see what we have is really different and what we have is nothing like what sex was like with OW. This took time for me to comprehend.
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I feel like he is rejecting me an he feels guilty about the sex.
I just can't believe this is where we are now. I do trigger during sex wondering if he moaned or called out her name during it. I don't know what he thinks about.
Just another part of my life destroyed. Sometime I wonder if we should divorce because I don't know if we will ever get any where close to the attraction we had in the bedroom before. I can't even fake it anymore because I think f@ck him- he doesn't deserve that.