One moment I am hopeful about my future. The next I am 100% positive that I will never be happy again, EVER.
I am SURE that I will never find myself in a real loving relationship. I know, I know....love yourself, I shouldn't NEED a man in my life.
I want a man in my life eventually. I want to be a for real happy couple, damn it. I think I will always feel a void unless I am part of a couple.
I have been doing so much reading about learning to be OK with just me. I accept that I need to go through the process of grieving my marriage ad finding myself once again. BUT I so want the married life that I always thought I would have.
And then I am back to hopeful, even looking fwd to no rug sweeping dealing with my own issues. AND then BAM right back into the pit of despair.