“I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity.”
― Gilda Radner
If someone had told me exactly 3 and a half years ago.....not only would my XWH cheat on me and leave me for the other married woman....but that I would meet a guy at the age of 31 (who BTW was TOTALLY not my type.....except for being tall dark and handsome....COVERED in tattoos) have the best sex of my life and then even on the pill and him "saying" he had had a vasectomy....and conceive a daughter who is now 19.5 months old and inevitably end up a single mom doing it all on my own; I would tell you you had lost your ever-loving mind!!!!!
I always had the mind set that "Those types of things don't happen to people like me....I have a masters degree....I'm smarter than this.... I know better....I never ONCE had an "oops" on the pill in 8 years with my XWH......WTH!!!!"
But, God had different plans. And, I'm so glad he brought me my Piper.....against unspeakable odds. She is my miracle baby. God knew that I wanted children and had wanted to be a mom for quite a while.....so he gave me one.....I just have to work twice as hard that's all.
Maybe someday I will meet a man worthy of being a father figure to her....maybe not. Either way....us girls are doing okay. We have a home to come to.....food in our bellies....clothes on our backs....and lots of hugs and kisses to share. That is what I call living. "Sometimes your knight in shining armor ...is just a douchebag in tin foil!!"
ME - BW - 35
HIM - XWH - 39
D day: November 15th, 2009
Married: 5 Years, together 8
Divorced: December 13th, 2010
New Beginning: Piper/8-3-12