Reallysad, thanks for the post. H and I were just talking about my mourning the loss of specialness in our M. It's nice to hear that you are working on recapturing it. I waver between cautious optimism and deep pessimism about whether we can overcome this enormous betrayal.
Sometimes I think that maybe this loss won't matter so much over time, though now it is really painful to me. I guess it's all about perspective and that a new type of specialness can come out of all this hell, if we build on the mutual dedication we show to each other in our R. Not an easy task, but not impossible.
I'm glad to see you taking steps toward optimism.