his Dday: 2/10 but TT until 7/11
we are. I don't know of another couple that is more compatible than us: we like to eat right, workout, don't feel the need to talk all the time, love our kids... That was the jest of IC today. that's why we can treat each other in a loving and forgiving way but meanwhile, what happened tears us up inside.
I "thought" I was 100% committed to this reconciliation. But I'm not. i'm 100% committed to not hurting him by acting out, but that's about it. I do not have both feet in. Nor does he. That would leave us too vulnerable. We both fear.
She asked if I could meet my own emotional needs, being hubby is sorely lacking in that area and would have changed by now if he was going to. I said, I'm not sure, thinking what is the point in being married then?
A week ago I asked if it was a good time to talk about something and he said yes. So we exchanged 3 sentences and he couldn't fix what I was talking about so he went back to Wicked Tuna. I just stared at him. Previously, I would have engaged him somehow but I just walked away. It'll be brought up tomorrow at MC, who works feverishly at getting hubby to connect more with me emotionally
As long as we keep it on the DL, we are good. Compatible. As if that was enough.
[This message edited by rachelc at 4:31 PM, March 19th (Wednesday)]
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12
me (WW/BS): 48
4 kiddos in mid 20's
“Most things will be okay eventually, but not everything will be. Acceptance is a small, quiet room.”