But that's just a lot of water
((WB)) this is such a hard time. truly you're still early in the healing process.
my X dragged me through a year of going back and forth between me and OW. it was awful to constantly have her in and out of my world.
He's still with OW 6yrs later. Now most of the time I don't even notice when OW's world's overlap from time to time with mine via mutual friends. On my good phases, I could even be in the same room with her if I had too. During worse times, I just don't want to see her but I don't really care anymore. She stepped in and replaced me in social circles. This used to upset me a lot. Now I don't care at all.
As you heal, this will annoy you less and less but right now it totally makes sense. Don't let her take too much of your energy. You need your energy to recharge right now! Get well! :)
Underneath a bridge I burned
And there's no use in backtracking
Around corners I have turned
“Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future.” -foulton oursler