Thanks for the quick replies!
BtraydWife, I'm trying to remember that it was for the best & that I didn't prepare better because I never in a million years thought the person he is today existed. My fault. I'm paying for that ignorance now.
Moo-he moved his direct deposit & the remaining money to a personal account that I can't access, since I took half the money (after bills cleared) in the joint account on DDay just in case he tried to kick me out/go nuts.
I am stuck here until the house sells. He's making NO move to do anything legally, however. Lawyer I consulted said stay here until finances improve.
He's not violent, just emotionally cruel. Sadly , I grew up in an emotionally (& physically) abusive home, so I can withstand it so long as I can bitch here about it.
I also don't believe living in a shelter would be better than here, nor do I want to leave behind my 3 dogs & adult daughter who live here too. They are all the family I have left. S living on his own doesn't want to get involved, He said "The situation doesn't make me happy. .. but it's your lives. I'm Switzerland".
I don't blame him, He loves us both.
but it hurts to not get some SUPPORT somewhere.
I feel like I'M the one who's done wrong. Everyone, except DD, still treats H fine, because no one knows. I don't want to expose because they are H family anyway, I know they'll stick with him. It's how it's happened with other divorces in their family.
Luckily, I've located affordable group relationship break up counseling. I'm starting next week.
Otherwise I feel pretty STUCK both emotionally & literally.
I can not believe myself that I want to R with this guy! Not that he wants to...
I always said screwing someone else was a deal breaker for me, it always had been in the past with boyfriends. But,then again, I wasn't married to them for half my life, either.
I also wasn't middle aged, unemployed, or partially disabled then either.
[This message edited by damnUnicorns at 3:36 PM, March 28th (Friday)]