I've been a mixed bag of emotions all week. I found myself wondering why I'm here and who would really care if I wasn't anymore.
I have 2 adult children but they both have their own lives. Neither of them really want anything to do with me until they need something from me. I call my son once a week and often feel as if I am bothering him and he is in a rush to get off the phone. He calls me on occasion if he has news he wants to share but that's rare. My daughter is classic NPD and makes me feel like shit every time we are together. Even with the recent events that lead to her memory loss, she still manages to make me feel like a useless inconvenience in her life. That is, until she needs a babysitter.
I just moved into my new place on March 15th after being burglarized at my old apartment. I moved 12 miles north of my job to an area where I could feel safe. On the 18th our new CFO announced that our office is moving...20 south of the current office! The area is notorious for the traffic and no one in their right mind would purposely live where I do and have to drive to where our new office will be. Our current lease is up in September so the move will happen in July or August, whenever the new office is ready.
So I have to either find a new job or hire a dog walker to come in every day because there is no way my 2 little dogs can be left alone for 11+ hours a day without a potty break. I highly doubt my company will give me an increase to cover the extra gas and dog walker expense.
I'm living paycheck to paycheck and make just enough to pay my few bills and my living expenses. What the hell is the point?
I'm seriously considering packing all my shit and heading to Florida. Unfortunately, I just signed a 14 month lease and can't afford to break it.
So, do I start an intense job hunt in my area and stay put or do I suck up the commute until my lease is up then pack it in and say adios to Georgia?