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futuredreaming posted 3/30/2014 10:46 AM

Its been 3 yrs since Dday and I've been dragging my feet on providing a much needed timeline to BS. Every time I start it I get blocked after writing the start up incident. Its going to be the undoing of any hope of R if I can't get this down on paper. I've went over this whole thing in my head and its clear to me that the A's were not a way for some excitement or attention but rather part of a destruction path I was on that more like a numbing tool along with some heavy drinking over the years. I wasn't intoxicated during each incident but the need to get intoxicated followed afterward. My head was so far up my ass that I was living day to day wishing most days would be my last. I was running from every turbulent emotion that would be tearing at my core being. My story is a long drawn out one riddled with Foo issues, displacement, childhood sex abuse. I don't know if I can dig down into myself without someone there to catch me me when I push past this block and I'm scared to think my BS would have to be that person and would he? After 3 yrs of drawn out hurt I would understand if he doesn't have it in him to. I'm not sure how to remove stop sign. Replys welcome.

[This message edited by futuredreaming at 11:40 AM, March 30th (Sunday)]

wifehad5 posted 3/30/2014 12:04 PM

Stop Signs can only be removed by the Administrators. I've alerted them to your request

Until the Stop Sign is removed, BS's are not to post on this thread.

Thank you,

futuredreaming posted 3/30/2014 12:16 PM

Thank you wifehad5. I don't see an option when starting the topic as to setting a stop sign. It seems to default to it.