So I physically saw her for the 1st time this weekend!!
Even though its been 18mths since D-Day I've never actually seen or spoke to her about her EA with my WH.(Please feel free to read my profile for more info, instead of me waffling on.)
I was out shopping with my 8yr old and 6yr old. We get in the queue (which is zig zag shaped) and 1st off I'm stop by a friend (who knows nothing of my WS betrayal)and I'm chatting to her,then I turn to see I'm shoulder to shoulder with AP.
With only a rail between us. She looks at me and smirks!! In that moment so much went on in my head but so little actually happened.
I wanted to scream in her face,ask her new BF if he actually knew what his new GF was like? How she posts statements on FB about what every woman deserves in a man, but then plays her part in taking that away from another woman. But I kept my dignity, thought of my two children stood nxt to me, and also the friend.
So I stood in the queue nxt to her with my heart ponding, head racing,stomach churning and trying not to fall apart. Oh and still trying to hold a "normal"conversation with my friend.
I then watched her leave, watch as she walked past my WH (who was waiting outside the shop),saw the disgust/shame across his face as he realised who it was and where she came from, then he turns away. So not all bad hey
This has just knocked me back and feel like back to where I was 18mths ago. All I can think of is what WH has done and my heart is breaking all over again. WH has listened to me rant about it all over again while saying sorry over and over, as he held me all last night.
Her reaction to seeing me makes my blood boil. The nerve of her. Wished I had hit her one. But deep down I know I did what was best in that moment for my kids. But still
Feeling unnerved and asking if I made the right choose for me. I know im in love with WH , but do I really want a relationship which is tainted.
[This message edited by melamber at 5:25 AM, March 31st (Monday)]