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So, he's out of town again. Was supposed to be back tonight but said a flight was canceled, and then called the kids from an airport while he had time to kill. He said he's going to be back in time to pick them up from school, but a part of me doubts it.

...anyway, while cooking dinner, I just got so angry. I'm angry that I don't have access to my usual pans. I'm angry that I don't have access to the food. I'm angry that my L hasn't called me back and answered my questions, or had one of her assistants call me. I'm angry that I have to beg people for kitchen donations. I'm angry that I'm getting treated like the one that did something wrong when all I didn't do was clean. Even then the dishes were done, kids wore clean clothes, and they ate. I'm just very, very angry that there is nothing I can do about it right now.

I can totally relate. I'm facing a similar set of circumstances, and it is infuriating at times. Exercise and meditation help me keep my anger levels in check so that the anger doesn't turn inward. Anti-depressants can help too. The good thing about the anger is that it can be channeled into creating the new life you envision for yourself.

(((Leia)))

I feel you. It's deeply unfair.

I hope you can find a good outlet for the anger. Remember--this too shall pass. Your pans shall come back to you, or you'll get new ones. And you'll get the weight of your STBXW off your back, which is priceless.

I'm right there with you sister. I hadn't eaten in three days...well actually I tried. But it always came back. And in light of the lower income I have (he's still living here but stopped his direct deposit). I didn't feel right eating what food we have left for it to end up in the toilet.

I completely melted down yesterday because of his demands. I cooked dinner. Called everyone up to eat. Then left and went for a long long walk. I walked so far. I couldn't walk back. I called my son to get me. But that walk have be peace. Because I realized that no matter how hard it was going to be with him gone. It was going to be so much better. My son told me that the two days he was gone were the best two days he can remember. That right there solidifies my resolve.

So.... I hope thing get better. Only worry about the things you can control. If it's out of your control then just swipe it away. It's like the bugs in the world. You can kill a few. But you can't kill them all - and they keep procreating!

Hugs to you and your kids.