I'm dreading it. The affair began in April of last year and the month of May was one of the worst months of my life. He was so mean and callous, and then so kind and trying to be loving, only to turn around and verbally slap me again all while being head over heels with his ex.
The job I have has me working occasional weekends to go in and check on things. I didn't realize it at the time, but I am working every other weekend for nearly 8 weeks, starting the weekend that their affair started and ending the weekend he finally decided which relationship was more important.
My husband, last year, said he wanted to make that month of time "fun" this year, but I don't know that I can accept that yet. There are dates coming that are etched into my brain and I am dreading their anniversary this year, so I'm working...a lot.
Not really sure how to get my husband to understand it, though. I am far more articulate after the fact than I am in the midst of emotional turmoil.
I really am not looking forward to the next two months. They hurt.