It is so normal and so hard. But keep at it's it truly, truly gets better. The pain lifts from time to time, and you remember how much you have ahead of you in life, and your friends help, and your family helps, and you're good to yourself...and time passes, and you stay in IC and everyone reminds you what you already know, that you are going to be okay, that you are going to pull through and be even stronger.
Just keep hanging in there, rough day after rough day, and more and more you will feel like yourself again. This is the worst part. Just be good to yourself and keep up the healthy choices, and keep putting one foot in front of the other.
You got this. You will be okay. There is a brighter future ahead, waiting for you. The pain does not last forever.