I'm on a business trip. First one I've taken since dday and I miss my wife. Obviously I miss her all the time since we're separated (her request) and have NC, but this is different, something simpler, something deeper.
My flight was cancelled today, then delayed, then I went standby and finally over a period of 8 hours I finally got to where I was headed. And during that whole time, she never knew where I was. I wasn't allowed to send her the customary "I made it" text. Or an FYI text that my flight was cancelled due to weather, etc.
I'm alone in this journey and while my friends, my father, my brother, my priest, my therapist, all play a tremendous role helping me through this, nothing can replace a spouse.
I don't want to be a downer, since there is SO MUCH GOOD that has come out of the journey I have been on these past 5+ months. But wow, sometimes limbo and NC and the realization that I completely destroyed my wife's world all hit me over something as simple as not being able to send her a text message...
Tomorrow is a new day but right now I'm alone with my thoughts and missing my wife and friend.