Is it just mine or do all Ws seem to forget details like who was the 1 st meets of 4 (4 meets he has admitted to as he had verifications from then) he met, when he bought condoms, when he used them ...
I can't get any answers. He says he chucked the Pkt after OW1 then tells me he hid them in his brief case and used 1 with OW2 .... It doesn't add up !!!?
I'm sick of all the "i I don't remember" all the inconsistencies in his stories. For someone who has such a good memory in his work for model numbers, phone numbers.
My head going to burst. I want the troth. I want him to remember.
If he told me the truth for once this be so much easier for me to deal with. I keep digging and digging searching for answers.
He has lied since I found out. 1st saying he only met OW1 for coffee turns out they had sex in his hotel room.
He told me he didn't use hits phone to contact these people just messaged then on site then I find 500 texts to OW1 on his bill. There is a OW3 as well, that he rang a lot sometimes at 6am in morning when he was working in her area, I contacted her and she says she never met him and he says the same too, for whatever reason I believe him, but I'm such a useless judge of character as for 8 years I thought he would never do this. Forever telling me how much he was in love with me, ok we had our ups and downs, but he always swore to me he would never cheat on me and like an idiot I believed him.
Iv hardly slept in 4 days, DD feb 20th. Seems to be getting worse not better. Trying for R but until he can tell me the truth I can't see it happening. The sad thing is I still love him deeply.
I need strength from somewhere. I'm lost. I'm hurting.
For 2years he has led a double life, working away from home , on a swinging site. My world has collapsed.
My marriage ended 9 years ago to a violent abusive man. I thought my life couldn't get any worse after the beatings, 1 when I was 8 months pregnant with our child, well I was wrong. This pain by far is worse. Being in a violent relationship I could see the abuse, but I couldn't see the abuse my partner was doing to me by meeting these people and being on a sex site. I can't get a straight answer to be questions which is tormenting me.
This is mental abuse.