10 months ago things started to go sour. It immediately made me assume he was cheating again. He stopped touching me and started with the insults "you're too fat", "too ugly", "you just don't turn me on".
We started counseling together again. And were making progress. Until last week when he decided to just end it all.
I checked his phone records and he is talking to her again. I have no idea how long it's been going on and nothing he says matters anymore. He's a flat-out LIAR.
And my heart is still broken. Because I'm apparently a HUGE doormat.
Never thought I would be dealing with this crap.
I'm definitely in the VERY early stages of grief because I'm a freakin mess. I'm pissed one second and bawling the next. I have ZERO desire to eat but shove a bottle of alcohol in front of me and I would down that sucker (I'm not. I know better, but still...)
I know it's all baby steps but this is just plain old bullshit
What an ass. What a blameshifting, abusive ass. You are NOT a doormat - you are a woman who has been fighting for her marriage. He's a lying, cheating, false R fronting jackass. And he does NOT deserve you.
Sending you strength for the journey ahead and comfort for the pain you are feeling. There are far better days ahead of you, honey. I promise.
((((more hugs))))
"Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you." -Walt Whitman
You know that he is insulting you because he needs to cut you down to make himself feel better.... You are not fat or ugly. He is ugly...inside and out.
(Debi9kids).
My ipad does a lot of crazy typos.
So very sorry you find yourself here after giving him the gift of R. Try and take care of yourself and your babies. You deserve better.
"I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel". –Maya Angelou
(((debi9kids)))
"Your value doesn't decrease based on someone's inability to see your worth." -Unknown Wise Person
No contact his ASS!
You can't rationalize irrational behavior.
He stopped touching me and started with the insults "you're too fat", "too ugly", "you just don't turn me on".
FTG. Are you kidding me right now? How the hell did you get nine kids if you can't turn your husband on?
Lying, cheating jerk. Blame shifting abusive...wait - I love that line in NatureGirl's sig...abusive troglodyte...yes. We may have to borrow that from her.
(((Debi9kid))). I'm so sorry things have ended up this way for you. You did your best. You can't do it for both of you.
Lawyer up, honey.
Oh - and water. Drink your water. Leave the alcohol where it is. No. EAT whether you want to or not. It will get better.
[This message edited by nekorb at 9:44 PM, April 4th (Friday)]
Life will get better... I promise!
Till then, know that we care!
Hugs, K
i'm so sorry!
i'm going to be practical for a minute. get yourself to the lawyer on monday. if there are OC you need to file for CS immediately.
“Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future.” -foulton oursler
((debi9kids))
Double Betrayal D-Day 7/26/2013 Divorced 11/18/2014
Two steps forward and one step backwards, is still progress.
I'm sorry you are dealing w/such a colossal FT.
Slim Fast is good, Ensure is good, oatmeal is also easy to get down (and if you are a puker, easy to get back up).
(((more hugs)))
FTG.
I'm sorry.
Thank you everyone for food suggestions. I've been living off of Cream of Wheat and Slim Fast.
As time goes by I definitely realize I am SO much better off without him.
