Well you were up late. Its ok, so am I. Im so sorry about your trigger. Triggers seem to be one of the longest lasting fall out symptoms.
My D-day was over a year ago, we are divorcing, I moved out, and I STILL trigger! Songs, the beach, a certain SUV make and model, a certain hotel/bar, and so on.
For me, I find that if I confront the trigger, I become numb to it. I try to expose myself to them.
It seems like you are in limbo though. I was there for 7 months. I do not recommend it.
In my opinion. Remember, this is my opinion. There is no such thing as R. Only limbo. Forever wondering, triggering, settling for them due to bills/kids, after they did what they did and probably will keep doing it.
Now that me and my STBXW are divorcing, my triggers are just that. Triggers.
While I was in limbo, the triggers were warnings and reminders. They were my mind and body telling me to ignor my fool of a heart and to get away from the source of my pain.
My intuition was correct. After her one year affair. Our R was false, she was still with him.
My point is, are they triggers or intuition?
Hugs. Good luck. We are here for you.