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Far from JF0- a tip from the past

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 Holly-Isis (original poster member #13447) posted at 7:52 PM on Monday, April 7th, 2014

I remember the pain of JFO. I can still feel it sometimes if I allow myself to go there. It's real, it's deep.

I did something that I now find myself grateful for in the months after d-day. MrH had left for Iraq, still acting the unrepentant WH...turns out he was, I had a second d-day while he was gone.

In my opposite-of-180-self, I set up a YouTube channel for him to see the kids. I hoped to keep fresh in his mind what he was contemplating giving up for xOw2. On a side note- it didn't work. The only thing that worked was being willing to leave the M and refuse to be treated like an option. Once you get to that place of strength, never leave it behind. Never accept what your head, heart AND gut know you will need of you gift your WS with R. Please.

For the first time in a long time, I logged on to that account.

I am SOOOOO grateful for me that I filmed them. I was in such a fog, I missed so much of that year...or more. It is bittersweet to hear their little 6yo and 2yo voices send messages to daddy. I know what he was doing then, how I was struggling. But because of my trying to do something for *him* then, I did something for my future self. I now have tangible records of how cute they were...and at nearly 14yo and 10yo, I need it!

So do yourself a favor. Video your kids, journal, take lots of pictures, even more than you might normally take. Set them aside in a safe place and come back to them. Know that through your pain, you loved them. You held on to everything you could. Looking back and seeing it, you'll see why. R or D.

Meanwhile, my prayers are with each of you. The wisdom and experience of SI is behind you. You will be able to walk through this, though some steps may be more painful than the next.

"Being in love" first moved them to promise fidelity: this quieter love enables them to keep the promise. *CS Lewis*

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tushnurse ( member #21101) posted at 2:42 PM on Tuesday, April 8th, 2014

thanks for posting this Holly.

This is a gem of info.

I now look back to the time right after Dday and it's honestly a just flashes of things. I guess it's the minds way of healing from the pain. I only remember a few things here and there in the first 6 months after dday.

Glad we have photos from that time.

I hope newbies take this gem of advice and do the same.

Me: FBSHim: FWSKids: 23 & 27 Married for 32 years now, was 16 at the time.D-Day Sept 26 2008R'd in about 2 years. Old Vet now.

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