I recently moved back to the city I grew up - to be closer to my parents. S and most likely D has been really hard. The hardest decision I have ever made. I go from moments of relief to anxiety and panic. Anyway, I've felt about down about myself and myself esteem got stomped on after the Dday. But -- I have run into three ex-bf's (from high school - before I met H) and they've all said the same thing, "wow stronger you look amazing, you look great." and I know I shouldn't get my self esteem from someone and it comes from within (blah, blah, blah
) BUT DAMN it felt good. It was such an ego boost. I realized how I let my H hold me back. If I would want to wear my hair down or dress nice for work his attitude would be "which man are doing that for?" and I realized it was his own stupidity, low self esteem and fear that if he had an A I would too. I looked dumpy/frumpy for so long. Those 3 compliments made me realize how much of myself I let go of and let him control during the 10+ years we were together. I've come to the realization that S and D are not a mistake...it actually feels really good.
Married 6 years, together 15 years
3 awesome and beautiful children
OC discovered on Dday - born in 2005
D-Day Summer 2013
working towards D...I can't pretend anymore
**If I edit I'm correcting a typo!**
