I don't like being single today. 4 years of this aloneness. 4 years !!! I didn't ask to be unmarried in my 50s. I didn't expect to be alone this long. My exH dated the whole time we were married so I thought how hard can it be to find a partner? haha Only I'm laughing at my arrogance.
My friend assure me there's nothing wrong with me. "Give it time" they say. Of course, they're married. I remember when I was married I lacked understanding for singles. I assumed single was their choice. I have new appreciation for other people's journeys. I'm grateful for the lesson, my expanded compassion.
I appreciate myself. I am worthy of a whole healthy relationship. I'm a woman who handled my life falling apart and slowly I assembled a new life. Learned a lot. I can do this alone, but I don't want to be alone anymore.
Today I long for a partner.
I needed to release this from my brain. I'm hoping I'll stop dwelling on the empty place in my heart. Thanks for listening.