My WH knows that I am highly ambivalent about R, and actually leaning toward D, but he is trying hard to woo me. Some days I want to be convinced; others I am sure I don't. Within 24 hrs of being discovered, WH initiated NC (though it took 2 weeks to really stick). He has answered questions with candor. He got himself to IC and is reading books on recovery. And he has been sending me "check in" messages every day at work.
Today's was this, in response to a repeat question I asked for the umpteenth time (and yes, he did answer the questions before adding this):
That teeter board youíre on must be exhausting.
Your confidence is shattered. Trust is non-existent. I want to do everything I can to help you feel steady, like youíre on solid ground again. Iím not tired of answering those questions. I will happily answer them again and again if that is what I must do to assure you that things are as they should be. I am happily transparent so you can check on my words to see if I ever lie to you again. I havenít been lying and I wonít.
I want you. Only you.
I choose you every day.
Does this sound sincere, or like total BS? I have no faith in my ability to tell any more.
[This message edited by krispy47 at 12:19 PM, April 9th (Wednesday)]