WTH??????? I was having such a positive morning, feeling a ray of hope, thinking maybe my life doesn't have to be in ruins for ever. The WH messaged me, which he had been doing all morning, and said he had some money in his pocket and he thought he might go have a flavoured milk as we are trying out a new way of eating soon and it will be something he will be giving up for a little while. And BOOM
triggered! I'm not even sure why, but all of a sudden I was pissed! Maybe it was because I was in the middle of a message to him explaining how I was feeling positive but that my brain keeps wanting to drag me into the soup of memories or mind movies of the affair and I was wondering if I was weird in some way. Or maybe I triggered because I recently asked him to write a timeline and on it was a meeting I wasn't aware of yet where she drove past his work and he told his boss he would go get coffees, he followed her and they parked on the side of the road for 5 minutes hugging and kissing! Now I feel like I'm dragged back into my deep dark well of anger, fear, betrayal and resentment!!
Will this ever end?