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 sparkle09 (original poster member #41901) posted at 7:01 PM on Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

Something I said I would never do but I cant cope. Im crying everyday! I got official diagnosis of Herpes 1 last week and have been on a downward spiral. I kicked out WS last Friday and he isnt helping much. He apologizes and tries to be there for me but looking at him just disgust me at this point. Not really doing 180 I just feel so hopeless that I will ever get over this. Why do I feel like Im getting worse..when will I start feeling better? These AD were my LAST resort I need to get it together for my baby girl.

Me-33 WS-34
Pregnant & 2 year old sweet baby girl
Together 15 years Married 5 years
D-day #1 - 12/25/13 TT D-day #2 - 1/3/13 admitted to 3 year affair with co worker

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JustOneMoreDay ( member #42945) posted at 7:18 PM on Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

(((Hugs)))

You do what you have to do. I started anti-anxiety meds after I ended up sitting on the ground in the middle of a shopping mall parking lot bawling my eyes out when I couldn't find my car. They help. They aren't forever. Just what I have to do to get through right now.

I'm so sorry you are here. I am sorry we are all here dealing with the fallout of someone else's decision about our life.

Me -BS 41
Him-WS 41
Too many Ddays to count
Divorcing.

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Kelany ( member #34755) posted at 7:22 PM on Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

AD's saved me after dday#2. Prior to that I would take them. Dday#2 was so horrific, it was either that or, well...I don't want to think about it.

BS - Me
SA/FWH Him
DDay 1 - Jul 11
DDay 2 - Jul 12
R Dec 12

Former 80s Icon wishful thinking

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Skan ( member #35812) posted at 10:33 PM on Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

You know, just because you take ADs now, doesn't mean that you will have to take them forever. I've been on them twice in my life for situational depression. Both times, short term, less than a year. They just helped me stay stable enough to come to grips with what I needed to process. (((hugs)))

Imagine a ship trying to set sail while towing an anchor. Cutting free is not a gift to the anchor. You must release that burden, not because the anchor is worthy, but because the ship is.

D-Day, June 10, 2012


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