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As you all know, I moved back home and had a feeling he was cheating again but I was not sure except in my gut. Well today he confirmed that he was talking to someone but not OW. So this is OW #2 (if it is actually not the OW#1). Said he is not trying to hurt me and he stopped contact with this woman.

Here is what hurts.

I had my own place...

I was at peace...

I moved back home 5 months ago...

2 weeks after moving back he started his pattern of being a WH.

He denied denied denied.

Talking about divorce all the time..

Its not going to work....

All we do is fight.....

Now the truth is out and I am not in a state of confusion...

How can someone bring me home just to do it again?

Its like he wanted to hurt me on purpose....

He could have left me alone and I could have kept my own place.....

I FUCKING HATE HIM!!!!!

I am so sorry. The level of selfishness is unbearable.

This is a special kind of EVIL!

I am so sorry. What a thoughtless, careless, cruel thing to do to you.

The silver lining here is that you now know, without a shadow of a doubt, that you should have confidence in yourself and what you believe you know.

It was the challenge for him. Once you were back, he reverted to his true self. Live and learn.

Once you've seen under the mask it is terribly difficult for you and for him to keep putting it back into place.

His goal wasn't growth or healing - it was to reopen the bakery.

Live and learn - better now than a decade from now.

The cruelty is astonishing - the sad clown morphed back into the parasite that he is within 2 short months of False R - his idea of R was rugsweeping and promises to not fuck anyone else again. He was offended I didn't trust him to slip slide on that slippery slope as he has always done.

He said to me "I can't be in an M without trust" - I burst out laughing in his face and said "Me either dude, me either".

The he hoovered me to the point of madness - I was a complete shell of a person. Only then was his job done. I'll never understand it and I no longer care to. His complete lack of remorse was a gift - it forced my hand well before had the strength or courage to free myself.

I am not looking forward to the day that he gives it another crack. I fear he will never stop. He'll appear like he grim reaper every few years until I can block him completely from my life when my girls are grown. I predict he'll then play the poor me victim for them because the nasty XW won't give him a fourth chance.

I would rather sew it up.

Faithful - you gave it everything you could but you simply cannot R on your own. The sooner you evict this guy from your heart and mind the better. Find your anger, girl!!