Although I don't post too much I look on this site everyday. Somehow it is a huge comfort to me.
My WH left almost 8 months ago but D day was about 6 months ago. I didnt know he had been unfaithful but it turns out he was a serial cheater. Dozens maybe more of one night stands, LTA's, escorts etc.
Here's the thing. When he left we communicated. My daughters were 19 and 15 when he left. They were devastated but sadly had known about the cheating for years, and he knew they knew but he had them keep the secret
After I discovered he was a lying cheating POS that had been screwing anything and everything including my friends, kids moms, coaches etc. he became a first class A-hole and just treated me like crap. I guess i burst his bubble.
Sorry so long...i am getting to my question... so I have been doing the 180 for my own healing. I have not heard his voice in 2014. Last communication was from him by email on march 1st (our anniversary) to tell me what he would "not" be paying for (even tho our agreement says he has too...anyway...) Other than that NO calls, NO emails, NO texts...if the kids want to see him they do, otherwise its weeks between visits.
I have been feeling SO GOOD. My doctor commented on how happy i look, the counsellor commented on how i have grown, my friends are hearing me lament less and less about him... I feel like i am starting to heal and then,,,,,
I see him at Walmart. I know it could have been worse. I could have run into him and his current whore, or the whore he is cheating on the whore with who is half his age.
He didnt let on that he saw me. But I saw him. I dont know what it was. I have not laid eyes on him since December. I left my cart of stuff (frozen goods and all)...and left. I literally hyperventilated in the parking lot.
I thought i was healing. Do you think I am healing or just avoiding? I dont even know. Now i am thinking about the lying manipulating cheating man whore who has screwed me over in every way possible AND given me an STI. I dont want to think of him...
I guess i am asking does the day EVER come when i will see him and not be crushed?
Sorry for the long post, I do tend to go on and on...