I just heard that my ex and his OW are reconciling and getting back together. I suspected so, but to hear it for sure was painful. Still painful, still emotional. Why can't I seem to move on?? Why does it bother me? Why can't I seem to remember what an ass he is, and why do I think she has a prize?
I still can't stand it that he has someone in his life and I have no one. As petty as that sounds, it rankles me.
We will have been divorced for 2 years this summer, apart for longer. I feel like I'm so weak and pathetic that I can get sucked back down onto the roller coaster. So many times I thought I had finally gotten off the ride, and it takes so little to get me back on.
I need to get myself out of bed and try to enjoy easter with my family (and not think about the fact that he is spending easter with someone else's kid).
I just don't know what to do next. I am so tired of it. I am so drained emotionally. I wish I had someone, a SO, who I could get some support from.
I just needed to rant a bit to you all. I have reached a point where people IRL don't want to hear it. They think I've moved on and admire how strong I am and think I have so much pride and self respect to just leave my ex in the past. They don't know.
Feeling so low today.