The journey from your mind to your hands is shorter than your thinking - Casting Crowns
Isn't it nice that some FWS can sleep at night without any thought of the whole load of crap that is infidelity and for many of us, the betrayed, it finds a way to slink into our minds and thoughts almost daily. I pray that you will find some peace and comfort soon and that you can join the ranks of BS's that have been able to move out of the darkness and into the light.
Well it's been 5 years. The hardest five years of my life.
I know you just wanted to vent, but I just wanted to say congrats to your and your H on making it this far. That is a huge milestone and you deserve a lot of credit.
Good advice by Rebreather. Rebreather, congrats to you and your H as well for reaching the 7 year milestone.
[This message edited by HardenMyHeart at 11:35 PM, April 21st (Monday)]
Married for over 15 years
2 beautiful sons
You may not control all the events that happen to you, but you can decide not to be reduced by them. Maya Angelou
I think others are right, that your WH should know, to have the opportunity to help you feel better. It's ok if you're not completely "over it," how can we ever be? The grenade he lobbed left a little shrapnel that still occasionally rears itself. You look down at your skin, finger the scar, and quietly wonder.
One year out,
Or even five,
Will I ever
Me....I have nightmares almost every night, Think about it at least every day. Two years out and I am still struggling to put myself back together.
Our dday was on the 21st. I was at work. I work in a postpartum unit in a hospital and watched all these happy couples welcome these amazing children in their lives. I watched dad's dote over their wives. Then I went home and looked at my husband who threw me under the bus for another woman. Yes he has worked hard to improve but on that day, all I felt was anger and couldn't talk to him about it because he tells me I need to fix myself and that he is doing everything he can. I just don't think he'll ever understand.
I hate to say this but dd (with me at least) will NEVER just be any other day, nor will those six weeks prior when h's a with our friend/neighbor was in full swing.
[This message edited by TICKED OFF at 6:36 PM, April 23rd (Wednesday)]