I actually went through my 4th antiversary without a major melt down. Actually I didn't even think about it. Yeah!
Now I am really depressed. I have to ask myself why? My answers are scary.
You're an idiot is first. What did H do to help get us this far? Answer to that - Not much.
Everything is hunky-dory as long as I don't make waves. IE bring up his A. I realize I am not like him and can stuff it away.
Second- I don't want to be married to him anymore. This one hit me by surprise and now I have to deal with and wonder why?
I think there are lots of reasons but the main ones are he had an A and then lied and lied about it. Even after he admitted he still lied.
I don't trust him has come out of this but worse than that is I really don't care I want out of the M. I am slow it took 7 years to get him to admit to his A and me 4 to realize I want out.