Anyway, I just wanted to share. :)
"Diamonds aren't a girl's best friend, freedom is."
Anyway, I know there is a part of me that is still very scared to get hurt, which is why I think I've been taking it very slowly in letting myself feel anything for him. But in spite of myself, I do. That's a little scary.
Scary as shit, isn't it??
"And never grow a wishbone, daughter, where your backbone ought to be."
- Sarah McMane
Best of luck to you! Enjoy!
I know it is hard to totally trust. I think most of us struggle with this. HOWEVER...it is huge that you are willing to take the chance.
I had to smile at your post because at some point when I was just emailing the guy I am not seeing....I mentioned that I put lemon in my water. EVERY single time I go to his house now, he has a freshly cut lemon for me.
I know this is sooo small....but it makes me because it shows someone is actually paying attention and doing that little extra thing for me.
Typing this made me laugh because I alway think of the nicknames ppl on here give their SOs....maybe I should call mine 'lemon drop'.
Anyway - just wanted to say good for you Nutmeg!
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She talks about how vulnerability is being "all-in" on something, when there are no guarantees. What that ends up giving you is something that could be fantastic. She says that being vulnerable truly is the only way to be fully happy. She says that being vulnerable is the birthplace of things like happiness, joy, pleasure, etc. If you can't be vulnerable, happiness becomes something that is not obtainable. The caveat...vulnerability can also be the birthplace of hurt, pain, fear, etc. So if you do not want to experience being hurt, you also give up the possibility of being happy. It is awesome and sucks at the same time.
Embrace vulnerability and be wholehearted in your actions and the investment could pay off 100 fold.
Check out Brene's TED talk titled "The Power of Vulnerability" if you want to delve more into it. It is only about 20 minutes, but it has really helped me. When WW and I were R, I went "all-in" for the chance at happiness with her. Unfortunately, it did not work and it hurt like hell, but I had to come to the realization that had I not done that, I would have robbed myself with the possibility of being happy. Like I said...it is awesome and sucky at the same time.
I look forward to sometime in the future being able to be vulnerable with someone again...although I will be scared as shit.
“Optimism is a strategy for making a better future. Because unless you believe that the future can be better, you are unlikely to step up and take responsibility for making it so."
Divorcing - at last!