So, my mediation was Monday and i just need to vent.
I am really pissed off that I have to move. My ex, who is a very wealthy man, made 7 figures the last two years, does not have enough cash for the divorce settlement, so I have to sell the house I am living in (I won't qualify for a loan, because I am a student and will graduate in June) and move.
On Dday, he told me to leave the marital home and I moved down to the house we bought for the "Golden Years" of retirement. He stayed in the marital home, the home that I spent the last 4 months of the marriage, overseeing the renovations, while he was out screwing his mistress. I spent hours redesigning the garden, picking out paint colors, putting up with the noise and chaos of the renovations, while he was out screwing her. I now feel like I spent all that time getting the house ready for her.
He has had no disruptions in his life. She moved into my place, she moved into the house and quit her job. He keeps the house and his life. My world was shattered.
I have to move, again. My life is getting disrupted again and it pisses me off. Why is it that he has the affair, breaks the marital vows and life goes on as before???? He has to pay me SS for a couple of years so there will be a little less money for him to spend on his mistress/fiancee but it just doesn't seem "fair"
All I can think, is that the "Fair" is in Pomona and life is not fair.
I know this gives me a clean slate, and that I will move on. But after the hell, anguish and excruciating pain that I went through after Dday, it would be nice to see some karma come his way.