No worries! It happens.
You'll be fine.
Dig into this:
just can't quit doing.
because of course, "you can", being a free moral agent, you do have free will.
You are not compelled to do anything.
It's your choice.
It's subtle maybe, or a little "hidden" in there,
but if we are to love others as we love ourselves,
there's "permission" to love ourselves.
For me, hooking up with abusers, ignoring red flags, making excuses for abusive, disrespectful behavior boiled down to not loving myself.
Having low self-esteem.
Finding value in what I could do for others.
External to me.
It was easy. Natural to be externally-directed.
Because it helped me avoid my own issues within.
I was livingNot within myself.
One of our members has a good tagline:
Sit. Feast on your life.