I found out the man I was engaged to marry was cheating on me and it broke my heart. He called to tell me good night and he didn't sound right. He was whispering. He cheated on me before. I got the worse feeling in the pit of my stomach. I drove to his house and realized that he was not home. I called him and said where are you. He said he was at home in bed. I was in his drive way. He was not at home. The next day he lied and said he was out with his fraternity brothers. We argued and I broke off the engagement.
I never got any closure he refused to answer my questions but started to make threats like he never knew me. I filed for a protective order and he filed a fake one against me. This resulted in me paying out thousands for an attorney.
After 8 years this is how it all ended. He told me that if I had just stayed at home in bed everything would have been fine. I feel numb. I want my life back. I want to smile again but I am so HURT about this.
How do I start over after a big mess like this?