That's one part of today. The next part stems from knowing that right now pretty much marks the length of time from D-Day that fBH's EA went on, not counting, of course, the one and a half to two years that he was paving the road for it. Yep, a hard day....
We're doing really well, but I could sure use some advice, tips, or anything to help get past this bump in the road. I didn't realize it would hit me like this.
Clinging to Romans 8:28, Jeremiah 29:11, and Isaiah 41:10!
I totally relate to what you're saying about time frames. I am 9m past DD and the two long term As both lasted 9m. It is just a reminder of how far we've come, how many setbacks and rollercoaster rides we have had along the way and yet we're JUST reaching the length of time the As were each occurring for. It's hard to believe that these As were going on for such a long length of time, when you actually feel that length of time pass...it just reminds you this wasn't a 'quick' thing, it gives you an idea of just how long this actually went on for and it's hard. When I feel that I just try to realize that I'm feeling betrayed, because I was betrayed for a long time. I will talk to WH about it and tell him how I feel like he had such a long time to 'change his path or stop himself'. I find if he's reassuring and supportive, that helps. But sometimes it's just about taking a ME break - shopping, a walk, sitting in the sun, something to remind me that I don't have to place all my time and energy on how I've been wronged...yes, I've been wronged and the time frame is a sore reminder of that, so I allow myself to feel that pain, but I'm also in a situation where he wants to make up for it and I allow myself to feel that support too. It's hard, and the tough days are the worst because they bring you right back to a feeling of 'I can't do this' but it does pass and it will go back to happier feelings again, I have to remind myself of that a LOT when I get down so I don't let it overwhelm me and make me act out. I hope today goes ok for you.
My dday was 8 days after the birth of our first son and I have no idea how I am going to get through his first birthday, so I understand how hard this must be for you! Hope you get through it ok!